My first art show: an event with Alison Rose

by amy sharp


I was so lucky be able to collaborate with Alison Rose last weekend on my very first art show! I gave them words and they made beautiful prints. We also worked on some original pieces together. I learned so much in the weeks before the show about screenprinting and their awesome business. I'm really proud of the work and can't wait to work with Alison and Nicholas again!!!! The show will be up for a week or two more and you can check it out person at at 3039 Indianola Ave Columbus, OH 43202 or purchase prints and such online at the shop.


Scroll through some pics from the beautiful evening...


things I said when we were drinking

by amy sharp


I don't mind
that doesn't even hurt me
You can say anything to me
I'm sometimes fearful of Chihuahuas
I love you like fire
storms over the tops of trees
you should really do something about that
I'll figure it out
the way to know someone loves you
is if they let you pick
all the songs
even the ones that sound like noise
you can't tell me what to do
I'll always be this way
your fly is down
put me in a car
children grow faster in the springtime




 


turning

by amy sharp


at night I become a wolf
I rip out your heart
you never cry
there are sounds
though
cars speeding through puddles
sirens on the edge of town
people laughing in slick alleys
music escaping a bar
me howling






 

 


by amy sharp


the heart of a blue whale is as big as a small car
this is as mind boggling as other things in my life
my heart can fit in your fist
you could actually hold my heart
throw it like a pine cone
put it in your pocket
leave it on a park bench



 


This one is for you

by amy sharp


what's exhausting is walking around with it
the tiny slip of a thought
something that could be true
but you just can't bet on it
we're made of mystery and wonder
dice in pockets
rabbit feet
little wishes
but we're afraid
and we're sometimes stuck
I want you to say all the truth you know
even the ones you don't
I want you to practice in a mirror
pay attention to your mouth
make it move
in all directions
like a kiss
you'd put all over me




 


sempervirens

by amy sharp


I'm actually always on the verge of crying
wet eyes
red rimmed
war
at least my eyes look so green
when I cry
evergreen
always mean
I could make you look
like a forest
like a fairytale
in the rain


just tell everyone you are going to Target

by amy sharp


my favorite place to cry is behind the Kroger at the Graceland mall off High street
it's actually nearer to the fitness place
and almost always empty
I park my minivan facing the scrappy bit of woods
and turn the music up
so that I can't hear
my knock knock heart
the sound of mostly everything
wrong

I gravitate to pop music
sometimes R&B
it is possible to stop crying
when T. Swift comes on
sometimes I even smile
at the actual life I live
at the actual crossroads of now
because if you can't cry and laugh at the same time
you are probably not as fucked up as you need to be

 

 

 






 

 


This is a little story about me.

by amy sharp


It was Honda XR80 dirt bike. Cherry red. I got it from my dad. It was my birthday present. I ran out the door and into the driveway and it was there all glowing and perfect. I was eleven years old and we lived on many acres of country land and it was like a young adult book in the making. I was a tomboy with only a handful of friends because we lived so deep in the country and I was in love with this bike. I rode deep grooves into the grass of a football field large green space. I made a perfect circle that edged right up against a full creek bed. I rode over small hills that made me fly through the air and land like the boys in my motor cross magazines of the 1980's.

I would think all of my deep thoughts as I rode around and around the circle, sometimes up in the woods like a daredevil. I would throw my helmet off when my mother could not see me from the tiny kitchen window where she lived. I would let my long hair fly like squirrel tales, like flags. I learned that I could think all of my strange thoughts, all of the weird stuff out there on the bike. I could be fine with being different from my parents out there. I could be me. Sometimes I would let the few neighbor kids come over and ride with me. They would wrap their arms around my soft belly and squeeze me and scream and scream over and over. I would ride faster just to show off. My friend H and I would ride and scream out obscenities that we had heard from our fathers or the older boys in the back of the school bus. She had a mother who was dying slowly and as much as I thought I understood her I realize now that I had no idea how much power was inside of those dirty words we screamed throughout the Southeastern Ohio woods. Her dark thick hair flew like demons trying to catch us. We rode faster.

I burned my leg on the tailpipe one spring afternoon when I was out riding. It was the most pain that I had ever known. I limped towards my mother who was in the garden eating warm tomatoes with a salt shaker in her lap. She dropped everything and held me in the soft old dirt while I cried.

My dad sold the bike to his friend who had a boy. A boy who would not be afraid of a little burn. I didn't fucking care. I had tasted the danger and moreover, I realized that I could just go walking in those woods to think anyways. The wind would come sometimes. My hair would blow. People would want to be with me because I was dangerous. Even without a motorcycle.

And about a hundred years later I would lose a loved one to a motorcycle accident. And even inside of all the knotted grief of that time I kept thinking about how dangerous motorcycles were and how very scared of them I had become. I kept imagining his body so soft and the steel and metal so hard. I heard tires screech inside of my mind for weeks. 

And my dad stopped riding his silver Honda too. Later, years later. I just stopped hearing the noise of it at night. I noticed that the helmets were gone from the kitchen linoleum. My mother had placed her tiny feet on the floor and told him no more. My father would not die on a bike out in a tiny hamlet somewhere cold. He would grow old with her. He would not be reckless with her heart.

And as scared as I am of the wheels that run the pavement, I miss the feeling of being behind him. I miss the feeling of holding on to his tight body wrapped in vintage jackets. My arms were like concrete on him. I would compulsively whisper to myself that if I let go of my arms, I would die.

You will die on this road and your brains will bounce like balls.

You will die if you let go.

I said it over and over until it became a song that I still sing.

But for one day I would give anything to wrap my arms around my father and have him run the roads of my youth. We would fly past trailer parks and farmhouses. We would speed like dangerous hillbillies. We would see the blur of our life. I would bury my head into his back and scream all the bad words of the world.


maybe

by amy sharp


maybe you didn't know I was listening all the way down your body
to the things you said and did not say