actually there is something I want to tell you

by amy sharp



when I'm talking to you
there is something
happening
inside of my head
like a big band
playing
a swell
of music so loud
that my ribs rattle
I'm certain my eyes change
from green to blue
and you can see my toes tap
I say all the wrong things
over and over like a prayer
an invocation 
for you to bless me
bless my
heart
my beautiful
messed up
heart