So I am starting to like the fact that I am older and wiser and that I know who I am nowadays. Sucky part is that I so know who I am.
When I left my job I thought that each day at home would come scripted with an outlook calendar. I mean, I thought the day would unfold much like my professional one- I would tackle projects and assignments and kids and tick each one off in an orderly fashion and reward my self with lattes...like always. I would have a schedule and semblance of order. Nope. Not even close.
I am a bit freaked out at how a day can float out of my life and I am still in sweatpants. How is this possible. I get a bit anxious when I think about my lack of order. I mean, I am living in chaos...this is one problem..but, the bigger picture is that I just don't know how to do it all and not lose the time for myself. I have to write and create and play with these beautiful boys. I must work on my freelance work and clean the house and cook meals and entertain the sexy husband. I try and comb my hair and paint my toenails and shave my legs. I want to wear lipstick.
How is one supposed to balance this all? I am also taking Finn out of the two day preschool as of this week to save some money until 2008...So there is more stress. I have to compete with his old teacher who was a sage and wore a fedora? I mean, what are some possible daily schedule for me? I really need some advice...Currently I stay up late and sleep until the baby wakes and then get up....Should I be getting up early? Should I apply lipstick before bed?